Well, ok a have a really rough sketch of Neetch created on me new tablet, I hope you like.
Rough Pic using my new Tablet...
Feel free to comment and tell me I suck 
First Festival
Wow…
So Just woke up from my first day of recovery after the last day of The Phoenix Projects first Big Festival….wow that’s not confusing at all. 
All I can say is I am exhausted, still, sore and so glad it’s over.
On the same hand, I am uber excited about the next one.
I will have some “Midsummers Stories” later this week, but just wanted to drop by and say hi to my ever so regrettably neglected blog…
G
Beer and finding a lost friendship.
So I went out tonight after Java N Jam with my ex Girlfriend. We went to the International Beer Garten and had a beer, some pizza and just talked. It felt wonderful and amazing to just hang out with a person who was one of my best friends long before we were ever lovers. We talked about life, and our friends and how much we love/hate them and what we want to do with Midsummer, and how we would both love to buy this 3 million dollar house on eBay. and generally just bullshitted.
I know people say all the time, “My *Insert S.O. title here* is My *S.O.* AND my best friend! I don’t know about that, when you are lovers and S.O.’s things are more complex. There’s usually more responsibility, and definitely more feelings, and a sense of complacency that comes with being married, going out whatever. Don’t get me wrong there are definite benefits to being lovers, I mean Sex is wonderful, the intimacy in general is amazing too. But being friends in some ways in definitely different way can be more exciting. When you don’t spend 24 hours around a person, and only get to hang out every now and then you most certainly have more to talk about because you have to catch up. I mean its all the information you would get anyway but it just seems like more because it comes all at once in short bursts instead of the ho-hum everyday routine of “How was work?” “oh it sucked” “I’m sorry.”
Maybe it’s just me I am not sure. I know that in a sense I will always love her, and I can’t at this moment guarantee that if she said “Come back.” I wouldn’t drop everything in my life to do that. BUT I know I can just hang out with her and have a great time like we used to be able to do.And NOT be an emotional wreck at the end of the night.
I know that the love I have for her is deeper than just “Friends” Because I will always want to be there to help her, and I will always worry a little bit about her, but I know that if she finds someone that makes her happy, I will hate him with the…err *ahem* I will be happy that she is happy.
I know that for the first time in my life after a break up, I don’t feel like I wasted the time I spent with someone.
In Service,
G
Blech today…(Bit of a Rant)NSFW
So, Today has been one of those days where I just feel like crap. it started with the state only sending me half of my unemployment compensation. yeh $200 short makes G an unhappy Camper.
then i started getting pissy because I have no job, no car am basically hoboing it at my friends hose and let my life pretty much just go to shit.
Well I called the state to ask about the aforementioned fuck-up and do they put me on hold…no do they have a nice feminine voice to keep me calm while they tell me they are too busy to deal with me and tell me to call back alter..no she had a nasally voice that really grated on my fucking nerves.
This was not to be a good day. I will admit I wet all emo for about 20 mins, oh pity me oh who hates me blah blah. then I realized something, Everything that is going on in my life I cannot blame anyone else. the reason I don’t have a job is because I am not out there beating the street every single day looking for one. the reason I have no car is because I have no job. the reason I have no money is because I dont have a job these are noone else’s problems but mine. And how fucked up of a society do we live n when we blame everyone but us for our problems and stop looking at ourselves.
Well I looked at myself in the mirror today and I realized that in a sense I hate myself. at least a little. I hate that I Don’t call my parents as much as I should. I hate that I want to lose the extra weight but am taking no initiative to do so. I hate that I screwed up the best thing that had happened to me in a long time. I hate that when I tried to fix that I screwed it up even more. I hate the fact that there are some days I just don’t care what I look or smell like. I hate it all because this is NOT who I am. I am Not a person who is disorganized. *Shutup* I WANT to be organized, I want to be put together well, I feel better when I know my bills are paid and when I dress nice. it gives me a warm feeling when I do things the “right” way, but where is that motivation to do that?
Answer: Inside me. I have to pull it kicking and screaming out and force it to materialize and become real.
Tomorrow is a new day. I shall not live tomorrow as if it were my last on this Earth but the first. I am rewriting the story of my life. new Chapter starts tomorrow.
By Words, By Breath, By Blood And Sweat And Power. So Shall it be.
G
New WARP Podcast up!
Hey Folks Really long one this time so I split it into two files. This one is about Etiquette both Regular everyday manners and Pagan Etiquette. Hosted by
Gaelyn, Thor, Mystral, Medea, and Denny!
We had a great time doing this one and we stayed on track. Will post the next installment in the next 24 hours.
Check it out!
http://phoenixprojects.org/warpcast
Ybor, Being old, and Schtuff
So it’s been a couple of days, after my humiliating defeat at the hands of The Dungeons and Dragons, I decided if I didn’t HAVE to post a blog, I wouldn’t.
I am sure if you read the blogs that are associated with this one *namely Spence’s, and the Hobbit* you know that we took an adventure to the world of Ybor city on Saturday night, now let me say this right out, I have not been “Clubbing” since before I was getting drunk long before I was able to do so. I had never been to Ybor and had wanted to go for awhile.
Well, the “Men” loaded up and after a bit of haggling on where we wanted to go we headed to Ybor, I had wanted to see the Castle and the area in general and was excited. After arriving *with a bit of misdirection a bit of back seat driving and Wayyyy too much time in McDonald’s Drive thru* I was floored by this little jewel of activity in an otherwise bleh state. I make no lie I don’t find much awe inspiring beauty in Florida *well there was that one girl on the bar at Coyote Ugly but I digress.*
We found a parking space, ended up at GameWorks decided we wanted some less than family friendly activity. and headed toward Coyote Ugly, now let me say this up front, I love women. Women dancing on bars in little shirts little shorts surrounded by alcohol and loud music….ahhh heaven. I had drank a beer at GameWorks *It was an arcade but an arcade with beer so it does score some points* And had another at Coyote Ugly. I had hardly eaten anything all day and all the walking already had me a bit flushed so yes the Knight was a bit tipsy * I throw a shoe at the person shouting “lightweight” from the other side of their monitor* But it was a buzz and all was good. we wandered around some more and ended up in The Castle, ahhhh KMFDM leather, black lipstick eyeliner, nail polish, corsets and fetish wear…I was at home.
See a lot of people don’t know..I used to be a goth, I don’t show it now because 10 years of being married to Satan will change that in you. But The Castle felt like I was pulling on an old pair of gloves. I even didn’t mind the Techno music and guy with just the C*ck Sock on, I will admit I wall flowered a bit but it was my first time there and besides, I like to watch <_< >_> and my oh my there was plenty to watch, I think i told a total of about 120 Women that I loved them, and most of them smiled or ignored me which is about right.
I have decided that this knight must visit The Castle more often and try and find his old shade of fingernail polish…
I’m not so old that I can’t have fun
Honor Above All,
The Bruised Knight
D&D Cost me The competition
Damn Gary gygax and his addicting world of Fantasy Role-Play! Oh Well, I stand defeated… Carry on my hearty word warriors!
Gaelyn Out
Computers And Etherian
Have I mentioned lately that PC’s can give me a nervous Breakdown?
Yesterday I lost 2 HDD and a whole mess of other schtuff. it has annoyed me. as of today I have managed to fix one. by replacing the board that controls the power.Yay, good times this one was the important one to me as it had all the art and all the websitesI work on on it.
So, wow I really have not much to talk about today, 400 words is gonna be tough, I mean some days it’s a breeze and then some days you are like ho hum what am i gonna talk about so maybe I will write a little story. this story takes place in the first age of Etherian when mortals were barely a thought and the gods themselves walked the surface of Etherian.
In the very first moment of starbirth the surfaces of Etherian were still cooling and her waters still occasionally boiled. the first things that walked the planet were not human not animal. Etherian herself had walked and where her footsteps had landed life sprung forth.
From the first step The Phoenix rose up the Spirit of fire and birth, as it streaked into the dark sky it’s cry brought forth the first sound.
The Second Step, Awoke the dolphin, the spirit of water and knowledge it sped into the depths of Etherian’s oceans already learning the oldest of secrets. It’s Splashing brought forth the first rains.
The Third Step, Brought forth the Wolf, The Spirit of the Land itsself and of strength it’s howl taught the world fear.
The Fourth Step, Brought forth the Dragon, Spirit of the Air and Magick, as it rose into the sky it’s roar brought forth the knowledge of the arcane.
the fifth and the sixth steps are never spoken about for the forms that came out of those are the most of holy and are the great mysteries.
Etherian reveled in these creations watching as they went forth and gave the surface of her cocoon activity. She knew that she needed to return to the core of her home and slumber for the angents of the one power still looked for her. as she faded into the aether her physical form becoming that of the planet itsself the spirits that were birthed bowed gently or tipped a wing or fin and then went about their duties.
This is just a taste of some of my writing as I do quite a bit of it you can check them out at
http://talesofetherian.wordpress.com
In Service,
G
Right so cutting it close. Oh AND Star Trek
ACK! 11:35 lol My puter was down most of the day then I watched Star Trek(Again)…whew almost lost it lol!
But here I am still kicking, bet you allw were just waiting for me to fall…well Aiont gonna happen!!! no way!!1 lol. See I am in it for the long haul.
But anyhoo so Star Trek.
Ok lemme first say this. I have never been a “Trekkie” I like the series *Icluding Enterprise so stick it to all you haters out there* But I’ve never been obsessed with it most of you who know me know that I lean more towards the heavy breathing dudes in black armor with glowing swords. *GET THAT THOUGHT OUT OF YOUR HEAD I’M TALKING ABOUT VADER!*
However I have just watched the new movie and well..I think I am hooked.
*NOTE POSSIBLE SPOILERS*
The Actors were amazing, Zachary Quinto is so much like Leonard nimoy in certain scenes it is a bit scary. The actors all did an amzing job pulling off the essence if not the exact image of the original TOS actors. Karl Urban has long been one of my favorite actors and his protrayal of Bones was just amazing.
And the fact that was the first “Reboot” I have seen that has made me go…uhhh they did wha? with the Wha? but doing what they did you know what, they have made an entirely blank slate for the Trek universe.
No longer will things be like they were. Khan doesn’t have to show up. heck the Federation may end up making peace with the Romulans and not the Klingons… yeh how much would that screw up your thinking? No Worf on Enterprise? hmmm the possibilities.
As Always Kirk is quite the Ladies man, and the Green skinned chick makes me wish I had one. Christopher pine did an amazing job not imitating shatner but defining his own style of James T. And the Ship, wow the enterprise looks amazing if a bit like the inside of MAC heaven. a lot of white and clear stuff going on.
I’m usually not one to go gaga over certain films *LOTR excluded oh and Star WARS* But This one is absolutely freaking amazing, it has definately made me a bit of a fanoby and i look forward to see where the Trek universe goes from here. I mean they could do an entire new set of series with the universe and nothing would ever have to be the same. I love it!
Well I got over 400 words and it’s still minutes from midnight, so ummm HAHAHHAHAH not out yet!!!
434 Words
In Service,
G
Is it Worth it? (Rant)
As a Leader of a Group, and someone in the community who has stuck his neck out over and over like so many before me I have great days where I feel blessed to be a part of a community as great as the one I know I am in.
Then there are days like today. Now don’t get me wrong I love my community and I guess that’s why the rumor mill and the back biting hurt me so much. You try and help people and they turn on you. You try and teach someone something and they take and prove that they never really got it. You offer out your hand and it is slapped away.
There are a few people out there who seem to want to paint me as an asshole. to those people I ask how am I an asshole? because I tell you to get your *Family Friendly* straight when you are a (Student) and you are out of line? or because you don’t like the way I do things?
Here’s a hint, for the most part you don’t like the way I run things you can come to me and I will explain myself. On some things I refuse to compromise because you have a problem. But if you want to talk about me behind my back, you must not realize that 99% of EVERYTHING gets back to me, and you want to paint me an asshole then keep saying things behind my back and you will see what an asshole I can be.
Worse yet is the people who I talk to and they act fine then i find out from others that they are talking crap about me behind my back, is it the fact you lack the courage or the honor to talk to me? Or is it because I am not around?
Explain to me please. oh wait..you won’t you will just go talk about what an asshole I’m being and won’t come to me about your problems.
You say I take all the Glory? Are you*Family Friendly* serious?? Tell you what I’ll trade you for a day, you can have all my “Glory” and I’ll take whatever it is you do. I along with a Whole group of ppl work our collective ASSES off to make sure this is a community that is welcoming. Ask yourself are you helping or are you sitting on your ass doing nothing but griping?
It’s time to put up or shut up.
You got something to say, say it to my face. Don’t be an honor less coward,
you ain’t gonna hurt my feelings.
I am done with cowards.
you want to be a part of the problem and not part of the solution? go find someone else to betray. I’m done with you.
*469 Words
In Service,
Gaelyn
